Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Breathing..

The storm is coming but i don't mind
People are dying, i close my blinds

All i can do is keep breathing.. 

I want to Change the world... instead i sleep
I want to believe in more than you and me

But all that i know is i'm breathing 
All i can do is keep breathing 
All we can do is keep breathing now.. 

All we can do is keep breathing 
All we can do is keep breathing 
All we can do is keep breathing 
All we can do is keep breathing now.. 
 

-- Sung by Ingrid Michaelson

Friday, November 28, 2008

Bombay Blues

I can't help feeling so entirely frustrated and helpless as the firing and the terror continues in Bombay.. Everyone has an opinion on it and most are just so confusing.. its a little bit sickening to see TIMES now harp about how many cameras they have on each building and how they are bringing the real authentic trust when other channels have contrasting reports.. People are hoarding around nariman house as though its a match or something.. then someone will get shot at outside and they'll blame the police for not being prepared enough..

There are already a hoard of reports about how the people of india have to stand united.. the idiots on TIMES now actually showed a picture of the trident and said "if an inanimate building can stand tall, the one billion people have much more strength" In the middle of a huge mess what a stupid thing to say! Then he went on to ask the journalist whether she had a life jacket or not and she said no.. maybe they should get someone to buy one and give it to her... i mean, i'm very proud of her bravery but i also think they should get her to wear a bullet proof vest instead of making her the hero thats reporting in teh face of danger and perhaps the hero that might die in the line of duty later! And thats the problem..we come up against situations like these and then the reports of resilience and how people stood together take over and we step up security for a bit and then everyone forgets.. No one knows whether we killed the right people or caught the right people.. whether they should be hung or not..

Most people i know on various sites and dumb RJ's on radio mirchi are constantly saying we should take a lesson from America and deal with terrorism like they did ... these are all the same people who stand around talking against the kind of actions america took when they plunged the world into a huge war which eventually led to the recession we face now.. The terrorists actually went into the hotels to kill foreign nationals.. its all actually a repercussion of the way America handled 9/11 and now people want india to do something similar.. declare another war and have more people all over the world dead! Everyone thinks we should change the way we deal with such situations.. i think we shouldn't have such situations in the first place! People across the country have been talking about the poor condition of the coast guard anyway.. unfortunately it has now led to this..

Many libral people who i agree with on many things stand against the death penalty.. but for me ..i don't know... i don't think there is any excuse for holding the lives of so many people to ransom.. i don't think it matters what kind of a background someone comes from if they go around shooting people without a second thought.. i don't think they should try to capture such people i think they should be shot dead. But what is more important i think.. is that the conditions that are creating these situations be addressed. It doesn't help to lock up a bunch of people on suspicion.. the real ass!@#&s are still free, convincing more young people to go and kill.. So i'm as confused as ever.. i find myself agreeing with the statements about need for action..i don't know if we should deal with it like America and start killing and arresting and attacking even more muslims than we normally do in the guise of a war on terror.. God help the country if the BJP comes to power in such a tense environment coz i think as things stand.. the jingoistic nationalism that prevails in our country is geared towards approving and actually inciting another pogrom to kill "muslim terrorists" and equating indian muslims with pakistani terrorists..

In the middle of it all i am also forced to wonder like ishita, how many "outsiders" were among the police people trying to save bombay from the terror attacks tight now and where raj thakeray is right now.. perhaps his marathi manus will now shift focus from outsiders in general to muslim outsiders.. or perhaps all muslims.. inside and outside! In a country that is so divided all the time that its government sits silently twiddling its thumbs when people kill each other in the name of god.. i wonder why its shocking when some more die for the same reasons.. perhaps because the ones doing the killings this time are really "outsiders" and perhaps because the only thing they believe in is violence.. We all want to end this terror that disrupted our lives so we can go on killing each other in peace. The news channels have more material to make slick reports and find newer innovative names for "operation terror" Slick voice overs with urgent background music announces what the army has done as though it were a trailer for a film.. the slickness of the news reports with copious self aggrandizement by the channels through in makes me more and more sick.. The radio mirchi RJs blaming politicians and saying we should take hard steps like america remind me of Mr Bush's "you are either with us or against us" that in a big way has led to such situations in the first place.. accounts of the hostages and the smses and calls coming from them make me feel so very helpless and afraid.. i don't know what to think and i don't know how to deal.. sitting at home in delhi i have the luxury of shutting off the television and diverting my attention.. but i can't help but wonder how any of my friends or family in bombay could have been at CST, they could have been eating at leopolds or the taj.. any of them could have been dead.. and tomorrow it might be me... A little dramatic perhaps.. but honestly.. it has never been scarier to be in urban india than it is today.. finally we get a taste of what so many other pockets face every day and we don't like it .. and we don't know what to do..

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Memories of Great Nicobar


Eight degrees from the equator
children sleep in tin houses,
where the sun doesn't shine,
it burns--
and consumes the promise of new life
now four years old.
Memories and hopes are stranded on the ancient sea
that long ago gave birth.
Eyes that wait for a rebirth are closed.
They sleep in shelters and dream of homes..
At eight degrees from the equator..

Friday, October 10, 2008

Smash hit or Bust!

 
Saw kidnap.. nilanjana made us leave in the interval which is totally against principals.. i really do enjoy a good laugh if nothing else in a film and i can't think of a film i had more fun watching than Tashan during with kuber and i laughed our behinds off!  But Tahsan of course had a totally marvelous Akshay ji Kumar Ji.. 

This one should be retitled cleavage.. and no difference between the sexes here.. feminism has won and women arn't the only ones to be seen as sex objects anymore. The only person not trying to show it in the film was the poised and pleasant (what to do i just like her as mummy ji) Reema Lagoo.. and thankfully so.. no such luck with sanjay baba though.  There was of course the expected laughter when minisha lamba called vidya malvade "mom" and even more laughter when she called Reema Lagoo "nani" and between the shaky plot and the shoddy dialogues they manage to show quite a bit of skin. 

I figured out why they called it kidnap though.. thats what Sanjay Ghadvi thought of first and them worked backwards to writing dialogues and then finally a plot and  a story.. which incidentally was also the order in which they appear during the whole experience. It still takes a tanned, pouting and vaguely sinister looking(how sinister can you really look while doing the dishes!!) Imran Khan to tell Minisha and the audience "this is a kidnapping"!!!!! 

Why is a poor kidnapper worried about not breaking dishes as he can't afford replacements getting the kidnapee (minisshhhhaaa) skimpy designer clothes.. why does be get high tech diving equipment and kidnap her as she's swimming and not simple from the beach.. how far into the sea does she really get for him to require diving gear.. was sanjay dutt a stuntman before be became a businessman.. was there a big bust competition between the mother and daughter were the dialogues supposed to be funny or was that an accident .. these are all question the audience mustn't ask coz obviously the director didn't.. 

The movie is fast paced and slick.. The title sequence is interesting with the Kill bill type animation which all but hints at Sexual abuse in juvenile homes.. lots of physical abuse though.. perhaps coz we'r still fighting the homosexuality battles in the courts and not just in the lockups.  Minisha barely gets an item number's worth of skin show before she's whisked away..Sanjay Dutt is quick to respond and the film moves fast.. like a hollywood film... or rather like those korean films that they copy in hollywood.. but thats about it. 

Minisha's unconcerned portrayal of a girl waking up in a strange house with a strange boy pottering about really makes me want to forward all those emails about date rape and organ stealing over again.. if i woke up in a strange house after being dragged away from under the sea.. i'd be a little more bothered! 

Of course i only saw half the film and so i have no right to comment on the whole thing.. just that personally.. but between imran's clevage and pout and minisha's dialogue delivery from between clenched teeth.. i vote for the nice salted popcorn at PVR! 

 Sanjay dutt looked haggard and old.. vidya malvade had clothes a bit too tight and makeup way too perfect for a woman worried about a kidnapped daughter but i guess thats just my own prudery. I really wouldn't bother enough to go and see the second half even on DVD.. would like to hear it from someone though.. With Drona for competition playing in the next hall all the Bollywood buffs agree with Imran. "Hell is right here". 


Friday, September 26, 2008

Welcome to Sajjanpur


I was confused the moment the censor certificate came on as it said "Mahadev ka Sajjanpur" and i thought i could not have made that big  a mistake and read the title wrong through all the publicity and the movie lists and the ticket in my hand!! But even as the title of the film reassuringly came as Welcome to Sajjanpur, the confusion stayed with me throughout the film and stays even now. 

I don't know if i like the film or not.. considering it was shyam benegal, expectations were obviously high.. and the grand old man of indian cinema didn't fail to deliver.. But there was something lacking in the entire experience. I don't know if its fair to compare but i can't resist.. The film reminded me of various others.. The Brazilian Central Station, that starts with a woman sitting on the roadside and writing letters for people who pay her for it and which she never actually posts! Much more reminiscent of the Cuban Nada which has a postal worker reading people's letters and rewriting them in a much more intense and eloquent fashion before sending them off to the intended recipients.. but closer home, it reminded me of the unsurpassable, Sooraj ka Satva Ghora held together by a single narrator and cleverly and effortlessly weaving the stories of many many characters into a beautiful tapestry. That effortlessness was what the story of Mahadev lacked. And i realised that i don't quite like the protagonist talking to the audience and would have preferred him telling the story to someone else.. perhaps the publisher of his book to tie up the end. 

In Sooraj ka Satvan Ghora i cared for each character and was excited by their stories.. in Sajjanpur, i really didn't care much for any.. they all came and went as one dimensional people who collectively gave the character to the town Sajjanpur which perhaps was the main character.. emblematic of many small sleepy town across the country whose central concerns like farmers selling of lands of migrating to cities, superstition, violent and oppressive politicians and caste structures all come to the fore albeit in a light comedic manner that is perhaps intended to be palatable to the multiplex audience. 

The songs were perhaps intended as relief and brought forward aspirations of the villagers towards material comforts and extravagances and dreams of bollywood romances. Had they been better written and composed, half the hall would not have taken bathroom breaks while Shreyas Talpade and Amrita Rao went from plain clothed villagers to slick city generation next as they hummed some forgettable lyrics. 

Performance wise everyone from Talpade who held the whole thing together to Putru the dog were good. Ila Arun was delightful with her hilarious portrayal of the loud, worried superstitious village woman marrying off her daughter to a shanichari dog to counter the mangal effect! Reminded me of herself in Mandi and reaffirmed my belief that with the right director she can be absolutely brilliant on screen. I guess the relief of seeing her in plain clothes unlike her gaudily dressed overly made up and bejeweled avatar on the telly added to the whole effect! 

On the whole i felt happy about the widow remarriage, oneness with the farmers, sympathy for munni bai, anger towards her killers (although my stereotype accustomed brain thought the other election candidate didn't really look like she could be a violent murderer) and all the other politically correct things that i was supposed to feel. I even commend the currently fashionable shades of grey in the main character as he manipulates the letters to seduce kamala kumharin. But on the whole, the movie had too much to say and too many ways to say it.  At the end of the film that possibly raises some really recent and compelling issues i came out feeling that everything is well settled and allright which is clearly not the case. Personally, a little less prominence to Mahadev and a little more build up of the other stories (and perhaps removing the songs or at least restricting them to the background score) would have made it much more interesting. I would have loved a little more of ila arun's histrionics, Divya Dutta's stern resilience, Rajeshwari's silent affair and Munni bai's election battle. 

I guess i would advise people to go watch it, but it doesn't raise much emotion in me. I guess i prefer the dark humour of Mandi to the slapstick of Sajjanpur. 

Sunday, July 20, 2008


Slaying My Own Dragons

I read a lot of fairy tales as a child, and still find them fascinat
ing.. although with age i'm losing my ability to live a fairy tale and not just read it.. My grandmother would tell me tales of Guru Nanak she heard at the gurudwara where she spent her mornings and evenings.. and i'd translate fairy tales in return.
 
I remember having a favourite fairy tale when i was growing up..  the oldest fairy tale i remember being aware of is puss in boots.. on VHS, played over and over again till our VHS player breathed, or rather, play
ed, its last! But that wasn't my favourite.

My favourite fairy tale was longer, complicated, with twists and sub plots that changed depending on which one i read last. It had a princess and a housemaid, it had a wicked queen and ugly stepsisters, a handsome prince and a royal steed and of course the fire breathing dragon. In my head, all the works of the Grimm brothers..or at least the ones printed in my dog eared, broken backed copy merged together so i could play them in my head and be sometimes one character and sometimes another, for no childhood games did not begin with "lets pretend.".. and even alone, i'd play lets pretend a lot.. in "lets pretend" the trees became my allies and the wind obeyed my command.. foxes appeared to offer their tails to ride on and rejected bird feathers acquired magical powers.. i even hunted for and pulled out my mother's old NCC baton to fill in for a magic wand.. for my tale, of course, had wicked witches and absent minded sorcerers.. And i needed the magic wand to subdue the dragon.. an old kadi patta tree in the garden played the part as it was low enough to climb and pretend to be riding it.. high enough to pretend it was flying!

In all the tales i read, i never wanted the dragon to die.. i always wondered why the prince, or alternatively the knight, or the poor boy (the third brother, always the third brother!) couldn't just subdue the dragon and keep it as a pet instead of killing it. There was definitely something to be said for having a pet fire breathing dragon.. and as a ride, it promised to never go out of style! But the prince, or the knight or whoever else had to always prove their might by "slaying" the dragon.. and i always wondered why the dragons always risked their lives to guard the princess who seemingly never wanted to be guarded? Who put them up to it? Who were all those dragons working for? Why didn't they unionize? Couldn't they have just eaten up the princess and finished the story long ago? 

My favourite tale, the one in my head, was different and changed each time.. sometimes it ended with the dragon becoming a pet or a friend.. the knight only had to reason with the dragon and turn it against the wicked witch or the evil queen.. but later, it ended with the dragon flying off into the sunset, leaving the prince and the princess behind to live happily ever after.. perhaps the dragon met another dragon and had a house on the clouds where they grew their own vegetables and read and watched the stars at night and lived happily ever after..