yeh mera basta hai- yahan kuch 'main' sa basta hai. main, ek 'woh' ko tarasta hai, par woh bas main par hansta hai- aur ye jo mera basta hai woh us hi main ka rasta hai..
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Breathing..
Friday, November 28, 2008
Bombay Blues
There are already a hoard of reports about how the people of india have to stand united.. the idiots on TIMES now actually showed a picture of the trident and said "if an inanimate building can stand tall, the one billion people have much more strength" In the middle of a huge mess what a stupid thing to say! Then he went on to ask the journalist whether she had a life jacket or not and she said no.. maybe they should get someone to buy one and give it to her... i mean, i'm very proud of her bravery but i also think they should get her to wear a bullet proof vest instead of making her the hero thats reporting in teh face of danger and perhaps the hero that might die in the line of duty later! And thats the problem..we come up against situations like these and then the reports of resilience and how people stood together take over and we step up security for a bit and then everyone forgets.. No one knows whether we killed the right people or caught the right people.. whether they should be hung or not..
Most people i know on various sites and dumb RJ's on radio mirchi are constantly saying we should take a lesson from America and deal with terrorism like they did ... these are all the same people who stand around talking against the kind of actions america took when they plunged the world into a huge war which eventually led to the recession we face now.. The terrorists actually went into the hotels to kill foreign nationals.. its all actually a repercussion of the way America handled 9/11 and now people want india to do something similar.. declare another war and have more people all over the world dead! Everyone thinks we should change the way we deal with such situations.. i think we shouldn't have such situations in the first place! People across the country have been talking about the poor condition of the coast guard anyway.. unfortunately it has now led to this..
Many libral people who i agree with on many things stand against the death penalty.. but for me ..i don't know... i don't think there is any excuse for holding the lives of so many people to ransom.. i don't think it matters what kind of a background someone comes from if they go around shooting people without a second thought.. i don't think they should try to capture such people i think they should be shot dead. But what is more important i think.. is that the conditions that are creating these situations be addressed. It doesn't help to lock up a bunch of people on suspicion.. the real ass!@#&s are still free, convincing more young people to go and kill.. So i'm as confused as ever.. i find myself agreeing with the statements about need for action..i don't know if we should deal with it like America and start killing and arresting and attacking even more muslims than we normally do in the guise of a war on terror.. God help the country if the BJP comes to power in such a tense environment coz i think as things stand.. the jingoistic nationalism that prevails in our country is geared towards approving and actually inciting another pogrom to kill "muslim terrorists" and equating indian muslims with pakistani terrorists..
In the middle of it all i am also forced to wonder like ishita, how many "outsiders" were among the police people trying to save bombay from the terror attacks tight now and where raj thakeray is right now.. perhaps his marathi manus will now shift focus from outsiders in general to muslim outsiders.. or perhaps all muslims.. inside and outside! In a country that is so divided all the time that its government sits silently twiddling its thumbs when people kill each other in the name of god.. i wonder why its shocking when some more die for the same reasons.. perhaps because the ones doing the killings this time are really "outsiders" and perhaps because the only thing they believe in is violence.. We all want to end this terror that disrupted our lives so we can go on killing each other in peace. The news channels have more material to make slick reports and find newer innovative names for "operation terror" Slick voice overs with urgent background music announces what the army has done as though it were a trailer for a film.. the slickness of the news reports with copious self aggrandizement by the channels through in makes me more and more sick.. The radio mirchi RJs blaming politicians and saying we should take hard steps like america remind me of Mr Bush's "you are either with us or against us" that in a big way has led to such situations in the first place.. accounts of the hostages and the smses and calls coming from them make me feel so very helpless and afraid.. i don't know what to think and i don't know how to deal.. sitting at home in delhi i have the luxury of shutting off the television and diverting my attention.. but i can't help but wonder how any of my friends or family in bombay could have been at CST, they could have been eating at leopolds or the taj.. any of them could have been dead.. and tomorrow it might be me... A little dramatic perhaps.. but honestly.. it has never been scarier to be in urban india than it is today.. finally we get a taste of what so many other pockets face every day and we don't like it .. and we don't know what to do..
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Memories of Great Nicobar

Eight degrees from the equator
children sleep in tin houses,
where the sun doesn't shine,
it burns--
and consumes the promise of new life
now four years old.
Memories and hopes are stranded on the ancient sea
that long ago gave birth.
Eyes that wait for a rebirth are closed.
They sleep in shelters and dream of homes..
At eight degrees from the equator..
Friday, October 10, 2008
Smash hit or Bust!
Friday, September 26, 2008
Welcome to Sajjanpur

Sunday, July 20, 2008
Slaying My Own Dragons
ing.. although with age i'm losing my ability to live a fairy tale and not just read it.. My grandmother would tell me tales of Guru Nanak she heard at the gurudwara where she spent her mornings and evenings.. and i'd translate fairy tales in return.
I remember having a favourite fairy tale when i was growing up.. the oldest fairy tale i remember being aware of is puss in boots.. on VHS, played over and over again till our VHS player breathed, or rather, play
ed, its last! But that wasn't my favourite.
My favourite fairy tale was longer, complicated, with twists and sub plots that changed depending on which one i read last. It had a princess and a housemaid, it had a wicked queen and ugly stepsisters, a handsome prince and a royal steed and of course the fire breathing dragon. In my head, all the works of the Grimm brothers..or at least the ones printed in my dog eared, broken backed copy merged together so i could play them in my head and be sometimes one character and sometimes another, for no childhood games did not begin with "lets pretend.".. and even alone, i'd play lets pretend a lot.. in "lets pretend" the trees became my allies and the wind obeyed my command.. foxes appeared to offer their tails to ride on and rejected bird feathers acquired magical powers.. i even hunted for and pulled out my mother's old NCC baton to fill in for a magic wand.. for my tale, of course, had wicked witches and absent minded sorcerers.. And i needed the magic wand to subdue the dragon.. an old kadi patta tree in the garden played the part as it was low enough to climb and pretend to be riding it.. high enough to pretend it was flying!
In all the tales i read, i never wanted the dragon to die.. i always wondered why the prince, or alternatively the knight, or the poor boy (the third brother, always the third brother!) couldn't just subdue the dragon and keep it as a pet instead of killing it. There was definitely something to be said for having a pet fire breathing dragon.. and as a ride, it promised to never go out of style! But the prince, or the knight or whoever else had to always prove their might by "slaying" the dragon.. and i always wondered why the dragons always risked their lives to guard the princess who seemingly never wanted to be guarded? Who put them up to it? Who were all those dragons working for? Why didn't they unionize? Couldn't they have just eaten up the princess and finished the story long ago?
My favourite tale, the one in my head, was different and changed each time.. sometimes it ended with the dragon becoming a pet or a friend.. the knight only had to reason with the dragon and turn it against the wicked witch or the evil queen.. but later, it ended with the dragon flying off into the sunset, leaving the prince and the princess behind to live happily ever after.. perhaps the dragon met another dragon and had a house on the clouds where they grew their own vegetables and read and watched the stars at night and lived happily ever after..
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Teething Troubles
But when i sit down to type ..everytime, half way through a post i realise that even though i hope no one else is reading this, i find myself writing for that one stranger who might stumble upon my blog and read it.
So many people tell me that with all the things i keep doing i should start a blog...and so many times i sit down to type and realise that i have nothing to say.. i guess thats why they have so much free internet space..for people like me who have nothing to say and so keep rambling about mothing at all.. I guess its always the people who have nothing to say who take the longest time to say it!
Don't know what will come off this blog... a journal..a self obsessed monologue, will i give in to my activism and start lecturing based on my own half baked information .. don't know yet...but thats half of the fun of it .. to not know and see as you go along..
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
A Song Flung Up To Heaven
The free bird leaps
on the back of the win
and floats downstream
till the current ends
and dips his wings
in the orange sun rays
and dares to claim the sky.
But a bird that stalks
his narrow cage
can seldom see through
his bars of rage
his wings are clipped
his feet are tied
so he opens his throat to sing.
The caged Bird sings
with a fearful trill
of the things unknown
but longer for still
and his tune is heard
on the distant hill
for the caged bird
sings of freedom.
The free bird thinks of another breeze
an the trade wind soft through the sighing trees
an the fat worms waiting on a dawn-bright lawn
and he naes the sky his own.
But a caged bird stands on a grave of dreams
his shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
his wings are clipped and his feet are tied
so he opens his throat to sing.
The caged bird sings
with a fearful trill
of things unknown but longer for still
and his tune is heard on a distant hill
for the caged bird
sings of freedom.
-- Maya Angelou.
Monday, February 18, 2008
Island Affairs
The "Mainland" occupies a near mystical space in teh island imagination. Going to the mainland and coming from the mainland, all terribly exciting events. Food, clothes, ration, even people all come here from the mainland.. Never thought i'd get used to the idea of "mainland" and find a certain reassurance in the fact that mainland would always be far away and never come in contact with the islands apart from sending all those wonderfully exciting things that I would keep buying at rahmat and the hallmark store.
I came here from the mainland a year ago, and fell so in love with the beaches, the sights, the sounds and most importantly the people. I fell in love with the fact that i'd bump into someone or the other i know everytime i walk through the bazar. Nod to the shopkeepers wher i've become a regular and smile at random tourists who'd assume i'm also a random tourist just like them . I fell in love with how the waiter at Punjabi Dhaba would put chana masala, dahi and roti's on the table even before i'd order them because that was obviously what i was going to eat. In love with how walking home and picking up juice on the way from Milan was an everyday routine that became so familiar that i'd just go open their fridge and help myself.
The blog space is hardly enough to describe all that has happened over the past year and i'm not even going to try. Just that on my Island Aniversary all of it came rushing back, fresh into my mind. People who havn't been here at all wouldn;t know the feeling of completing a year here. But all my friends who've been here and done this can read this and feel so terribly terribly nostalgic about their own island aniversaries.
Smitha, Junuka, Divya, Liz and most of all Kranti.. its lonely here without you guys.. So quit feeling nostalgic and bring your asses right back!!


